embrace suffering, you know, be aware of it, learn to let go. to hell twp. i can't stand it. i don't think there's anything good about death. >> so you -- >> i hate it. i hate it. i think it's the true flaw in the whole system. >> so your's dylan thomas, rage, rage, rage. >> what's good about it. why shouldn't you get to be here forever. why shouldn't every one of our loved ones be here forever. i don't want people suffering, god knows. i want everybody to have fun. have fun, that's-- when my buddy mark left this planet, he waited and stay add live to hold catherine and my hand and looked at us before that morphine kicked in and he said have fun. >> that's what he said, have fun. >> and try t it's not so easy, you know, you get just so many sunrises and sunsets. >> exactly right. >> and you waste one, you don't get it back. you can't go, it's not like credit card where you get money back. it's gone. >> now what we spoke burlier though, because it's complicated, it's not so simple that i hate death, i love death, suffering, et cetera.